when i was a baby christian (sometimes i still am, just a little baby needing so much guidance all day every single day) i used to think that God's will for my life could not possibly match up to my dreams. and boy, i have a lot of dreams. my first love is reading and writing and being a reader/writer, you constantly fall in love with dreams. so yes, i am a dreamer. and the thing about my dreams--i completely believe that they will come true. actually there is no doubt in my mind that my dreams will come true, which is a great feeling. peaceful and scary all at the same time. a big old contradiction.
|me having Tisch pride. drama major baby!|
i once heard a pastor talk about how God gives us passions, talents, dreams so that we can use them here on Earth to bring Glory to His name. WOW. i sat there and i thought, 'that's amazing! i can still be an actress, i can still write novels, but i can do those things FOR GOD.' how...how precious. what a gift!
|Girl Conception collage. Doing what i love to do--performing & making people laugh|
and you know what? i think the film industry needs Jesus so much. i think of all the little kids influenced by media, i think of how movies reach out to so many people and i think how can i use this particular industry to further the Kingdom of God? to do what i am supposed to do on this Earth...hmmm.
so i am excited. i am excited to move out to los angeles in a few months. i am excited to struggle and work so hard to do what i love and to glorify God in the process.
i am not so conflicted after all.